Got to get stuff ready for the mall today with My dad, julian, and LNC.

-->Laydurrrr--->
   xo. Ms Worthless

Okay... moving on...

Uhh... well... hmm... oh yeah, i think Angel and Alex might get back together!! YAY!!

Brendon is a fucking jack ass and at the moment i am currently making life suck for him. Hes gotta fucking make up his mind and stop being a dumbass and hurting lauren god damnit! AHHH

OOOOOOOOOHH!! I am in contact with JR. (My cool older bro, yeah, the one my parents have pretty much disowned ::Rolls eyes::) He got me a letter in the mail, but gettin sum chick to address it so they wouldnt see his handwriting. And he put his email address in it, so yeah its awesome, im glad to get in touch with him again, i worry about that bastard god damnit.

Im going to the mall 2morrow morning. Yeah its like 2:40AM right now, and im supposed to be getting up at about 8 or so. Hahaha i might just stay up and not go to bed. I took another adderall at about 2:15am just because i felt like it, so that is gonna keep me up most likely. idk. haha But yeah, im goin to the mall with my dad, Julian, and lauren. My mom told me lauren couldnt go, but i talked my dad into it anyways. Im just praying that Julian doesnt say anything to my mom about it. Haha im such a good kid.     BUT OMFGSH!! AHH!! yeah i get to go to the mall blah blah, but god damnit go figure theres gotta be a fucking catch... OH! guess what i have to do when im at the mall!! OH YEAH! i get to sit on Santa's fucking lap!! weeeeeeee!! im so fucking excited.     .......uh, not. GRR. yeah my dad is gonna make me sit there with Julian to take picture. UGH its gonna be so fucking gay, and lauren is gonna laugh at me the whole time hahahaha and yeah Destiny already talked to my dad and told him that she wanted a fucking picture. -ugh- it scares me to know what shes gonna do with that god damned picture. AHH!! DAMN IT!

Well... theres nothing else to really write about... so uhh.. i guess ill just end this already long fucking entry with a SURVEY! YEAH!! ugh.

Peace fuckerrrs-
xo ali marie

Childhood weirdness
Did you spend your childhood time with mostly real or imaginary friends?: uhhh i dont really remember having too many friends to hang out with as a kid other than my friend Kaitlin that i knew in Preschool OH! but i definately remember having an imaginary friend named ALEX. haha she was soo cool. i miss that biatch!! lol hahahahahaha.
Did people consider you an odd child?: uh, no i dont think so. i was always the "Smart and Mature child" haha DAMN what fucking happened?!
Do you have memories that go back to when you were only a few months old?: hell no
Do you remember any thoughts you had when you where very young?: nope
If you answered "intricate", give an example of one of those thoughts: uhhh OKAY... well what if i DIDNT answer "intricate"?! YEEEEEAH! WHAT NOW BASTARDS?! HA!!!
Were you dreams very vivid as a child?: yeah my nightmares were. haha as stupid as this sounds i used to have dreams where they would be like a million cars, and more kept appearing, and i was spposed to count them all, and i would get so overwhelmed i would sit down and start crying and then i would wake up screaming hahahahaha
What is the strangest memory you have from early childhood?: no fucking clue
Were you a child prodigy or did you display any gifts at a young age?: well if u can b leve it... i was in all advanced classes and such thru Elementary and Middle and HOT DAMN im in all honors now. wow. what a shocker.
What was the most "grown-up" thing you ever said as a child?: uhhhhh haha ME?! say something GROWN UP?!?! haha first of all, "grown-up" sounds like a really fucking childish word. hahhaha
What were your favoite TV shows in early childhood?: Barney, Rugrats, and Blue's Clues!! Oh wait... blues clues came on when i was like 10...so what... i mean... uhh... i didnt watch kid stuff like that in 6th grade! I DIDNT! I SWEAR!
Were you afraid of monsters?: nope
Did you believe that fictional characters were real?: uhh depends which ones ur talking about... SANTA+EASTER BUNNY+THE TOOTH FAIRY!!! HELL YEAH!! wait... are you saying that im not supposed to believe in them now?! ...whoops.
Were you more quiet and artistic or loud and physical?: uhh well i always talked alot, but pretty much thru 4th grade i was kinda quiet and artistic and then in 5th and from then on i was just loud and uhh loud. haha.

Issues and US Stuff
Do you eat meat?: Yupyup
If you do, what is your justification for it?: umm... god fucking put those god damned animals here to eat... and uhh justification?! i dont fucking need justification. it fucking tastes good damn it. is that good enuf?
If you could legalize 3 things in the US, what would they be?: Drinking age: 13!! hahaha HELL YH! Pot: LEGAL! and hmm... uhh... R-rated movies for all ages!!! :-)
Do you belive in the death penalty?: depends on what the son of a bitch did
If you had a choice, which country would you have chosen to be born into?: uhh... America biatches. either that or Austrailia just cuz they gotta cool accent. haha
Describe your feelings about marijuana legalization: im all for it.
What about gay marriage?: if you love someone, you should be able to marry them. If your a guy and you like it up the ass... SO BE IT!!
Red, White and Blue is a ghastly color combination, right?: actually i think it works quite well... altho hot pink, and black would be totally soo much cooler.
What television news coverage do you detest the most?: i dont watch the news so um, does it matter?
What will you do if Bush is re-elected? wel considering he already was re-elected... umm.. i dont give a fuck..?
Which state do you think will drop off into the ocean first?: FLORIDA!!! yessssss!
Who do you consider "American Heros"?: people fighting in the army to protect our freedom, and people who are fighting for Civil rights.

Completely Obtuse And Silly Questions
Have you ever taken something apart just to see how it worked? yeah i think so
Do you ever yell at the television while you are alone? on occasion
Name a few things (if any) that you bought on Ebay recently: well i would...BUT.... i dont shop on Ebay. Amazon.com is sooo much better.
Are the Muppets sinister? lord yes!
Do you watch the Science Channel (Discovery) on a regular basis?: ew no boring.
Ever gotten into an "in person" argument with a total stranger? um, i dont recall so
Sugar or Honey?: SUGAR!!!
How many e-mails do you recieve a day?: uhh... anywhere from like 5-15. 99.99999% of which are JUNK.
Do you think that time travel is a possibility?: definately
Have you ever had a past life regression?: i dont believe so
San Francisco or New York City?: OOOO!! NEW YORK CITY!!! cuz that would soooo mean that im in NewYork... which means i could go meet Tiff!!! YESSSSSSS!
Are you slightly addicted to online tests and surveys?: sorta kinda a bit in a way...hell yes.
Close your eyes and type the first random image that pops into your head: Me stabbing Santa...GrRrRrRr!
If you could choose a time period in which to live, which would it be?: none other than the here and now.

Emotions And Such
Have you attempted suicide more than once?: umm...can i plee the 5th..? = /
Cutting?: used to.
Do you get violent when you are angry?: sumtimes
Which emotion are you most consumed by?: uhh im either really depressed or really happy/hyper
Are you highly emotive?: ...emotive?
Do you discuss problems or keep them to yourself? i usually discuss them... but only with the people closest to me.
Do you fall in love easily?: sumtimes...
What age/year was the most difficult for you?: definately 8th grade
How do you channel your anger/sadness?: music
List a few simple things that make you happy: My bestest friends, Jay, singing to happy music, being at youth group with my homies
When were you most recently your happiest?: Uhh... i would have to say... Thursday...5th period...sittin with Jay while he was kissin my neck ^_^

Friends
Describe your best friend as if you were describing a character from a film: truly amazing
Do you have friends that are drastically different from each other?: heck yes
List a few key traits that all of your friends have in common: they all make me laugh, and they have all been there for me many times
Have you ever been betrayed by a close friend?: well duh, who hasnt??
If yes, are you still friends with that person?: definately.
Are your friends mostly your age, younger or older?: my age and older

Family
Are you close to your family?: nope. The person im closest with is my bro (JR), who i never get to see anyways cuz my rents have practically disowned him... *shrug*
What traits are you glad you inherited from them?: uhhh my dads blue eyes, and well, if i knew my mother i guess i would tel you what im glad i inherited from her. ::kicks ground::
Which traits are you pissed off you inherited from them?: my dads pale skin, and my mother... uhh...? ::punches wall::
What sitcom does your family most remind you of?: sum dramatic fucked up soap opera
Does your family live locally or far away?: both
Have you ever stopped speaking to someone in your family?: yes
Have either of your parents died?: not that im aware of.
Is your family very much like you or are you opposites?: opposites
How many siblings do you have?: 3, and only two of them are related, and those 2 are only related thru my dad.
Has your family ever thrown food at each other?: yeah, me and julian were throwing food at each other this morning. =P
Are the holidays a nightmare or a time of joy?: nightmare. definately.
Do you look like your parents?: i dont think so. and most people say i dont look much like them.
List one interesting fact about your family: both of my older bros do drugs!! hahaha and so does my aunt!! (but of course hers are legal... she just overdoses on perscriptions hahaha)

Lovers
Gay, Straight, Bi-sexual or no idea?: straight
Married/partnered?: a wonderful boyfriend.
Ever gone out with someone you were embarrassed to be seen with?: ugh, yes.
Ever broken someone’s heart?: not that i know of.
How many serious relationships have you had?: just the one im in now.
Do you believe in monogamy?: most definately
Have you ever lusted obsessively over someone you knew you couldn't have? yes i believe i have. Grr. I couldnt help it.
Do you believe in the theory of soulmates?: sorta kinda
Ever cheated?: Uhh.... sorta kinda...not really...i dont know if its considered cheating exactly......
Been cheated on?: yes.
Most important emotional qualities of a lover?: that they are HONEST. and that they feel the same way for you as you do for them.

Would You Rather...
Eat a steak or a whole tube of toothpaste?: wth... uhh steak.
Be covered in papercuts or cigarette burns?: cigarette burns
Be percieved as intelligent or street-smart (but not both)?: intelligent
Eat a bottle cap or a spider the size of a bottle cap?: uhhhh bottle cap dumbass. who fucking made the questoins?! ahh!!
Be ruled exclusively by your heart or your mind?: heart i guess.
Have the power to read minds or make anyone fall in love with you? both :-)
Chew shards of broken glass or sit on a lighted barbeque grill?: uhhh how about neither?? does that count??
Be able to fly or be able to render yourself invisible?: definately BOTH. ^_^
Have questionable integrity or no sense of humor?:   ... wtf???
Granted the answers to any 3 questions or ability to resurrect one person?: resurrect one person.

Final Questions
Ever had a great song ruined for you after it was used in a commercial?: nope not that i can think of
Ever yelled at an SUV?: yeah i think i have
A Hummer?: haha actually, i dont think ive yelled at one of those. hahahaha
If you could turn back time and change two things, what would it be?: If i could go back... i would never lay a knife across my arm, and i would have not left my purse in the bathroom that night that my mom went thru it. damn.
Bambi or Nemo?: OOOOO i think they should put them both in a movie together!!! lol
How long have you had an online journal? Uhh... well... hey, gimme a sec and ill actually go back and check lol ::five minutes passes:: YESS! FOUND IT!! okay, yeah, ive had an online journal since Dec. 27, 2003. Because the first blogdrive i had started on December 28, but the day before that i had a Xanga so yeah. i just didnt really like Xanga and i found this better. But yeah, so again the answer to that question... ive had an online journal since December 27th, 2003! YAY! its almost been a year. =D
Do you find it to be a fulfilling experience?: Sumtimes it can be... but other times it just starts more drama. ugh.

OKAY... well... im FINAL done with that HAHAHAHAHA yeah this was a long fucking entry =P too bad most of it was a long ass mother freakin survey!! haha ok yeah well NOW its like 3:38AM or sumthin and im gonna end this shiat and listen to sum music and do sum other stuff...
i might go to bed.
im not sure yet. but GRRR no one is online, and brittany is asleep, and i dont feel like calling Morgan this late lol, and DESTINY is too drugged on sleep meds to hear her phone im sure :-P haha and yeah i dont wanna call alex, david is a loser, anthony is in Florida fucking Kazen, Licia lost her phone, anyone else with a cell phone i dont feel like callin and wakin up, and none of the other friends that i DO wanna talk to HAVE  phone, and i have a feeling i would get yelled at by sum angry parents if i called this late. hahaha but yeah anyways...
PEACE BIATCHES AND HOES!!
xo. Ghetto Fabulouso  <-- yes that is my PIMP NAME fuckerrrrs!!

haha yes, and i must put in a shout for my current hoes:
BrittBrat & Tara
(yes, if you would like to be one of my hoes, please notify me :-P haha have a nice day fags!)

Fuck you mother fucking bitch. Yeah i have my own suspisions as to who that is, but ill keep it to myself its not worth it.

Im in a really fucking pissed off mood so im done.
Peace out fuckers.

xXxMExXx